An older brother 500 years later

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An older brother 500 years later

Now his elder son was in the field; and as he came and drew near to the house, he heard music and dancing. And he called one of the servants and asked what this meant. And he said to him, ‘Your brother has come, and your father has killed the fatted calf, because he has received him safe and sound.’ But he was angry and refused to go in. His father came out and entreated him, but he answered his father, ‘Lo, these many years I have served you, and I never disobeyed your command; yet you never gave me a kid, that I might make merry with my friends. But when this son of yours came, who has devoured your living with harlots, you killed for him the fatted calf!’ And he said to him, ‘Son, you are always with me, and all that is mine is yours. It was fitting to make merry and be glad, for this your brother was dead, and is alive; he was lost, and is found.
— Luke 15: 25-32

We are angry because we feel we deserve more prominent recognition. Better seat, better treatment, better rewards. We are angry that the Father would not even tell us what happened. He just disappeared into the party, forgot to call us in while we were at work, doing our best for His household. How can He be happy having the younger Church back. He is not asking questions, just suddenly giving him the ring, the robe and the sandals like nothing matters any more. Suddenly he has the best seat with all the perks and everyone seems to be fine with that. Meanwhile, we still slave at the fields, in the heat, in the rain, in the season and out of season. Same ol' job, as always.

We are lost because our steadfastness turned into stiff obligation. We think we can work harder for the heartful laughter of the Father who always seems to be pondering the next step. We quietly try to read His mind and do the mundane without murmuring but there is an end to even the most holy obedience when we do not see any approval in the eyes of the Father, just the tears. 

We refuse to go into the house full of laughter because we have been working so hard an no one noticed for so long yet when the younger Church shows up, everyone has all the fun, cool parties and even the culture celebrates it. We scoff them saying they live on emotional hype, they celebrate easily the surface images, lacking virtues and the test of time while we walk with the the stoic joy caught in the marble cherubs flying in our cathedrals, frozen in time for ages to come. 

The Father finally comes out and asks us in but that's just too much to deal with. Let the extraverts dance, we will retrospect and rely on reason. We are too sophisticated for resentment, we will find a pious phrase which will acknowledge our correctness. Our justified pout will be ransomed by few quotes and a jovial sigh at the infantile behavior of the young Church. We are jealous of its appeal, power shown in signs and wonders and effectiveness but we present it as a concern, scrupulously writing blog posts what could go wrong and cautioning all (dying) around not to get involved. 

The Voice resounds throughout eons of times: all is yours, taste and see, partake. Trust me in this. 

Author: Iwona Bednarz-Major

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Community 101

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Community 101

I am still shocked when I hear that people do not really realize what Christian community, the basic block of Christian life, is all about, and that all, no matter the state of life, are called to live in some kind of community beyond their own family. It is not an idea for religious, extroverts, or people with the works of mercy bent only. 

The word 'Christian community' is overused, abused and misused. 

I have asked recently on my Fb page, casually, if people thought that community can be built online or the close proximity of bodies is a requirement? Not surprisingly, some of the answers were confirming people's wrong ideas about what Christian community is. It also confirmed the fears or excuses many of those have when they imagine kind of hippie communes or old type Charismatic communities with ladies flowing around the prayer rooms with tambourines. The truth is that the lack of living examples create imaginary ideas for what Christian living in a community should be. We imagine that having family life and going to Mass on Sunday with an occasional participation in youth group or Bible study and a dance is all that that is. We have fallen so far away from the ideal that the scraps of any communal living are satisfactory to us. We don't even know what we are missing. 

From my short questions online, I realized that people confuse community with friendships, spiritual friendships, utilitarian friendships, networking, collaborating, hanging out, and all kinds of other things they identify as creating communities and community living. 

The biggest malady of today's Western world is that everyone is trying to become self-sustained and independent. They do not like or want to depend on anyone, so each family tries to build a palace and a kingdom around their own needs, wants, and dreams. We do not really know how to build a harmonious family where spirituality, education, rest and work can take place in a purposeful and meaningful way. We follow the modern ideal of a family life and then we complain for the lack of time, we pretend we are busy while binging on watching Netflix for hours weekly, we surround ourself with clutter and then are overwhelmed with taking care of it, we live as slaves and we pretend we are having everything under control. The family can become an idol in itself and we can't see beyond that. Community life heals and supports modern family like nothing else. There is no other better remedy for families not only to survive but to thrive as living in a Christian community. It will teach you freedom, release your greatest potential and train you for life. 

Community doesn't happen when I seek likeminded people. The likemindedness in practicing charisms will develop and take place within a community structure but it is not based on it. People looking for likemindedness, as C.S. Lewis underlined, are looking for the same spark and interest in another when they are being moved inside of their soul. This is the beginning of friendship but relying on building a community only on likemindedness will not move forward beyond struggles, opposition, difficulties, trials. 

Community is not networking or collaborating only. These can come out as a fruit of being in one community but if community is built only on that, it wil not last beyond the points of engagement in particular tasks, work, project, no matter how exciting, innovating and progressive it sounds. Task oriented collaboration could ignite further interest in belonging to a Christian community. 

Community is not connectedness, although the early stage of building community is all about that. Connectedness happens when we connect. Duh. We connect enthusiastically and purposefully. But we do not engage in deep relationships, we are looking for points of interest that can further out own expansion. It is utilitarian friendship. Most friendships online fall under this category. From LinkedIn to Fb groups. People might feel they are building something close, yet if you really think about it they are very selective, interest focused and eliminate all distractions (things important but not convenient) from their point of view. Anything that doesn't suit them they omit. It's a selective world in the quietness of everyone's hand held device. People can say whatever they wish, whenever they wish and supply whatever visual aid for it online, yet the reality is far away from the portrayal of it created by them. Idealized life attracts but doesn't sustain. That's why marketing and consulting is huge now days. We want to attract to the ideal without showing the price that has to be paid. Connectedness is attraction without reality. That's why religious orders have try outs and postulancy. The first attraction has to wear off an the reality has to hit on. 

Community is not looking at its core only for building spiritual friendships, although it is crucial that we find spiritual friends (persons who know us very well, and help us in our spiritual walk; not a spiritual director but a person who can speak into my life and carry my burdens with me, no matter what) within community. Sooner or later most people find their spiritual friends within a community but we are not aiming at creating clubs. 

Community is not a neighborhood of default people living around in one geographical location. That's a suburb or a village or a district. People within its parameters can be friendly, know each other a bit, kindly offering meals and help in need, clean the streets and watch out for each other property but this doesn't constitute a community. It's a bunch of households trying to manage their surroundings to have pleasant life. 

Christian community is not a prayer meeting. It can start as one and it is one of the core times and places where people engage and interact yet it is just the beginning. Your prayer group could be the beginning of community but it is not a community yet. It has some elements of a community. 

Christian community is not having weekly meal together and talking about interesting things. It is a part of social life within a community and feasting and celebrating together is important yet just sitting around the table doesn't mean we have a common life.

Christian community is not weekly Bible study or even small group. They can be part of formation and well led small group can become a great place of discipleship. 

If we would look to the Book of Acts, we would see what a local Christian community is, what principles should govern it, and what status and importance it should have. 

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Christian community, as in the Book of Acts, is build around one mind, one heart, and one spirit, in love. It is living in communion with God and others. Everything else comes out of that: it's purpose, goals, mission, ideals, charisms, spirituality etc. 
Community will have its own rhythm, certain rule, charisms given to the founders. It will have certain feel, particular aspect of ministry and spirituality that will be elevated, a drive for concrete purpose. If you think it sound more like a religious order and less like a parish that you go to, you are exactly right. 
Modern parish is still striving to accomplish what was set 2,000 years ago yet it fails on many fronts. It seems that modern parish in the US became a sacramental center not a community of believers that pray together daily, share all they possess, take care of all sick and needy among them, raise, train and send from their midst apostles and prophets. When parish lost its cultural appeal, the bare structure or what was left of it couldn't and can not sustain itself as a spiritual center or a community. Frantic scheduling of programs and frustration of lack of response is a daily bread for parish workers. People thinking that quick resolutions, weekly programs, occasional Bible studies, potlucks, social gatherings will draw crowds into Masses, religious education classes, etc. are shocked that so many people do not respond to the rhetoric of parish any more. Parishes can become communities but that requires a lot to change. St. John Paul II wanted each parish to become community of communities.

Community will require everything from you. You will have to sacrifice your time, energy and money. You will not be able to hide in your home whenever your want, if you are serious about community. You will discover and be confronted with your ghosts, skeletons, hurts as well as you will discover your potential, gifts, call and vocation. You will not be able to live as you wish for you will have to learn what real freedom is. You will have to confront every aspect of your life in the light of the Gospel. No one will control you, no one will force you, no one will demand anything from you. But you will be compelled, for the love of Christ, to revolutionize your ideas about life, reorder your priorities, and you will have to die many deaths to enter into communion with God and others and sustain those relationships, not run from them each time you want. 

You can not build a community without living in close approximation. Community has many aspects of family life. You do not chose your family members, you live with them. Especially those you naturally initially dislike will be the instruments of chiseling of your heart and character. You will also find people who will enormously inspire you, draw you closer to God, you will discover depths of human interactions that you thought are not possible. You will go beyond formal, surface and weekend relationships, and you will see, sooner or later, the beautiful and the ugly of most of your community members. And you will understand that we need each other to start living on earth as in heaven now. 

So Christian lay community, which can include religious, priests and lay people, will have a governing body, structure, vision, goals, mission, formation, discipline, accountability, vision, spirituality. 

In our pragmatic world focusing on success what we usually ask is 'but what do you do?' asking also about Christian community. People may see that certain community is helping immigrants, or orphanages, or making retreats for confirmation kids, or presenting evangelization drama or leading praise and worship and music during certain events or running a soup kitchen but what they see is only the action of community, it's the same when we see Trappists making caskets or brewing beer, thinking this is their main occupation that improves and aids society. But we chose communal life first so we can belong not so we can do things together. Doing flows from being. In a community we verbalize our bonding in Christ, and our doing is secondary although it brings much good to common humanity. In a community we accentuate caring above accomplishing. In a community we give each other space to heal and grow. We are not offended neither distracted by it, we welcome inconveniences connected to it and we try to carry each other burdens by more than weekly phone call. We walk in brokenness together, covering each others' wounds and releasing healed hearts and bodies. In community we learn to forgive for we have to be forgiven much and often. We do not live in offense or disconnection because of someone's political different opinion, we do not carry the offense but we dig in to discovering the reasons for it. We want to understand and be open. To be seen as effective and productive is not the primary concern of a community for we understand that becoming like Christ takes long time. We decide to give ourselves and others enough time to grow. In a community we learn to trust and how to become trustworthy. In a community we receive new heart and a new spirit to soar. In a community we learn how to live in a biblical covenant and true personal freedom. 

There are hundreds of Catholic lay communities around the world. Ecclesial movements, local communities, base communities, small Christian communities, houses where lay celibate and religious live together. Some communities can be as small as several people, especially if they live together, and some can have several hundreds people in them, sometimes multiplying itself in different locations. Hundreds of thousands of people in Catholic lay communities pray, serve, grow, give and receive, train, impact their surrounding daily. It is still the most invisible force that continues the presence and work of Christ in many lands, regions, countries and without them there is no future for a vibrant, impacting, holy Church to survive current challenges.

This is a repost from MajorChange Fb Group thread, it has been reposted in its original form. 

If you are interested in learning more about how to build faith communities, check out our new Stone to Flesh School of the Heart. 

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Anointing

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Anointing

When I came to you, brothers and sisters, proclaiming the mystery of God, I did not come with sublimity of words or of wisdom. For I resolved to know nothing while I was with you except Jesus Christ, and him crucified. I came to you in weakness and fear and much trembling, and my message and my proclamation were not with persuasive words of wisdom, but with a demonstration of Spirit and power, so that your faith might rest not on human wisdom but on the power of God.
— 1 Cor 2: 1-5 (NAB)

This Scripture passage calls to mind certain excerpts from the writings of Fr. Raniero Cantalamessa, O.F.M. Cap.,  in which he tries to navigate the muddy waters of the topic of the anointing as understood and experienced in charismatic circles. I am not limiting the understanding of this concept here to one of the sacramental, nor to biblical exegesis.  I found these quotes several years ago and come back to them often.  I ponder how the anointing changes the game, and how we attain such an intimacy with God which allows Him to use us as vessels of His Spirit. 

“Anointed faith is what gives to a speech prophetic power. Let me try to explain how this happens when we preach about the crucified and the risen Lord. While the preacher is speaking, at a certain point, quite apart from any decision of his, he becomes aware of an intervention, as though a signal on another wavelength were coming through his voice. He becomes aware of this because he begins to feel deeply stirred, invested with a strength and an extraordinary power of conviction that he recognises clearly is not his own. His words come out as incisive, with greater assurance. He experiences a touch of that “authority” that all recognised when they listened to Jesus speaking. The listener is brought to a point of total concentration into which no other voice can reach: he too feels “touched”, and often a shiver goes through his body.

At a moment like this, the human speaker and the human voice fade out of the picture, to make way for another voice entirely. Someone has said: “The true prophet, when he speaks, remains silent” (Philo of Alexandria). The prophet is silent because, at that moment, it is not he who speaks, but another. God says to his prophets, poor sinful human creatures, “You shall be as my own mouth” (Jr 15, 19), and the thought of it makes his messenger tremble.

Of course, this doesn’t happen at the same level of intensity all the way through. There are special moments. God needs only one phrase, one word. The speaker and the listeners have the feeling that drops of fire mingle at a certain point with the preacher’s words and they become white-hot and shining. Of all images, fire is the one that is least inadequate when it comes to expressing this operation of the Spirit. So it was that at Pentecost, he showed himself as “tongues of fire” (Acts 2, 3). We read of Elijah that “he arose like a fire, his word flaring like a torch” (Eccl 48,1), and in the book of the prophet Jeremiah, God himself declares, “Does not my word burn like fire, is it not like a hammer shattering rock?” (Jr 23, 29).

The best thing on an occasion like this is to ask God for a new anointing of his Spirit so that leaving this meeting each one can confidently say, with Jesus: “The Spirit of the Lord is upon me, for he has anointed me to bring the good news to the afflicted.” (Lk 4,18)

What we need to do is simply ask for the anointing before we set out to do any evangelistic work.”
— "Faith Which Overcomes the World" by Fr. Raniero Cantalamessa

 

This quote above touches on the power of kerygmatic preaching, such as Peter's sermon on the day of Pentecost, when the crowds joined  the apostles and disciples who previously were troubled but now boldly stepped out to propose a new Way of Life. It wasn't St. Peter's sophisticated eloquence, his edginess in communication, his persuasive rhetorical skills, his pedagogy or methodology of preaching or catechesis, nor was it his powerful biblical or apologetical knowledge that convicted the hearts of several thousands of passersby to ask: What now? If we are to believe that the conversions of Pentecost were the result of mass hysteria, or of some instant psychological empowerment enabling Peter to become the inspirational speaker of the day, or perhaps due to a brilliant marketing technique to make some people follow the new band of brothers, we would have to settle at least for a sudden remarkable transformation of a fisherman. Instead, we have to realize that this moment shattered everything the disciples understood previously. It enlightened their minds, and equipped their hands and feet to do what Jesus already told them to do. 

Three years of being discipled by the Son of God, and then seeing their Master's death and resurrection (which was witnessed also by the crowds) were not enough for them to cross from a fearful and circumstantial reading of the world to meeting the challenges of the culture. Only the self-giving of God and His decision to live on the inside of His beloved creatures initiated a concrete and experiential event which changed the history of the world. 

So where does this new understanding of the anointing come from? You will find it surprising, I think:

You who are named the Paraclete, gift of God most high, living fountain, fire, love and anointing for the soul (Veni Creator sequence).

And now we will see how the anointing, seen as a way of life or a quality of action, is grafted onto these biblical and sacramental roots. There is a very close relationship between this anointing and the sacramental one. Nevertheless, the two are not identical, because one belongs in the objective order of sacraments, while the other belongs in the subjective order of asceticism and mysticism.

How did this second or spiritual sense of anointing come to be accepted? (...)

A new phase in the development of the theme of anointing opened with Saint Bernard and Saint Bonaventure. In their writings the new, spiritual, and modern understanding of anointing became firmly established, linked not so much to the theme of the knowledge of truth as to the theme of the living experience of the divine reality. At the start ot his commentary on the Song of Songs Saint Bernard says: “A song such as this only anointing can teach, and only experience can enable you to understand it.”

(...) anointing is not something that is limited to the area of devotion; it is of interest above all in the area of contemplation. Bonaventure distinguishes between two basic forms of contemplation: an intellectual contemplation, whose goal is knowledge of the truth and that is based on the gift of understanding, and a sapiential contemplation, whose goal is an experience of and a taste for things divine based on the gift of wisdom. The latter is what he calls “the anointing”. He liked to say that the Dominicans tended to experience the first kind of contemplation, and the Franciscans the second. “One Order concentrates first on speculation and secondarily on the anointing, and the other Order attends first to the anointing and the secondarily to speculation.”

The meaning that Saint Bonaventure gives to the anointing comes across more clearly in what he writes at the beginning of his work “The Mind’s Journey to God”:
Therefore I exhort the reader, before anything else, to turn earnestly in prayer to Christ crucified, whose blood takes away the stain of our faults, and I do that lest he think that the reading alone will be enough for him, without the anointing, or that speculation will be enough without devotion, or study without admiration, consideration without exultation, effort without piety, knowledge without love, understanding without humility, or zeal without the grace of God.
This anointing, he says finally, depends not on nature, nor on science, nor on words, nor on books, but on “the gift of God that is the Holy Spirit.” (...)
— Fr. Cantalamessa’s “Come, Creator Spirit”, p. 162 - 169

If we think it is only about the crowds, only about the unbaptized, only about the streets, we might miss the point of training ourselves in following the Holy Spirit's presence under the times of anointing. How many times in the last year or so have you heard clear kerygmatic preaching under the anointing of the Holy Spirit? How many times have you released yourself to proclaim God's mercy in that way? 

It seems that a progression flows from St. Anselm of Canterbury, who famously quoted Credo ut intelligam ("I believe in order to understand"), taking a phrase from St. Augustine, to St. Bernard of Clairvaux's Credo ut experiar, ("I believe in order to experience") which is then carried by St. Bonaventure. For our post-modern world, it creates a link between what we call charismatic and mystical experience of God, firmly showing that the anointing, although sovereignly poured out on individuals and groups, and having its source only in God who is on the move, is firmly set within the context of people who are given to God in totality, even in the midst of their weaknesses and personal turmoil. 

If we are to understand the term “anointing” in a way that embraces the entirety of its usage, especially in the English-speaking world, following the spread of the Pentecostal and charismatic phenomenon, we need to take into account a still-later development of the term. Not only within the Catholic ambit, but outside of it as well, the terms “anointed” and “anointing” are used today to describe the way a person goes about doing something, or to describe the quality of someone’s preaching or teaching. (...) ... in the Pentecostal and charismatic use of the term it suggests the idea of empowerment and persuasive power of efficacy. A sermon is said to be anointed when the listeners are moved to recognize the work of the Spirit in it: a message that moves the hearer deeply, that ‘convicts” one of sin, that pierces the heart. And in this we come back to an exquisitely biblical usage of the term, found for example in the text from Acts where it says that Jesus was “anointed with the Holy Spirit and with power” (Acts 10:38). (...)

The outward effects of all of this are seen at times in gentle calm and peacefulness, in delicacy, devotion, or in deep emotion, and at times in authority, strength, power, or ability to take command of the situation, all in keeping with the circumstances, the character of the person concerned and also the responsibility each carries for the work that must be done. The clearest example is Jesus himself who, moved by the Spirit, showed himself meek and humble of heart but also, when the occasion demanded it, able to act with divine authority.
— Fr. Cantalamessa’s “Come, Creator Spirit”, p. 162 - 169

Yes, the anointing is for extroverts and introverts because God made us to receive Him fully. It comes as the thunder, or in silence, as Elijah learned. It comes in the big stadiums and in the lepers' colonies. It comes as a holy anger demanding righteousness, or as quiet tears asking for healing.  

 
 
One characteristic of the anointing is that it confers a certain inward clarity that enables us to do what has to be done with ease and mastery. It is, in a way, like “being in form” for an athlete or “inspiration” for a poet: being in a position really to give of one’s best. Yet the anointing itself is something more than we will ever be able to tell in words. There is no mistaking an anointing when we are in the presence of someone who is experiencing it, but though we “see” it, it is never possible to find clear concepts or definitions to say what it is that we see, for it partakes, in fact, of the very nature of the Holy Spirit and of an order of being beyond our grasp.

The Dictionary of Spirituality says, “The spiritual teaching of Saint Bonaventure is suffused throughout with anointing and poetry.” One has intuitive grasp of what that means, though one cannot define it with concepts and words. (...)

The actual anointing does not depend on us, but the removal of the obstacles that prevent the anointing shining forth does depend on us. It is not difficult for us to understand what the breaking of the alabaster jar means in our own case. The jar is our own humanity, our “I”, often the arid intellectualism to which we cling. (...)
However, although our own effort to be surrendered, obedient, plays a part, it is not all that is needed. The anointing comes much more through believing, praying, and in humble simplicity asking for it. (...) What we need to do, simply, is ask for an anointing before we set out to do any work, any service of the Kingdom. (...)

There are times when we almost in a physical way feel the anointing coming upon us. Feelings are deeply moved, the soul enjoys clarity and assurance; all trace of nervousness disappears, all fear and timidity are gone. We experience something of the tranquility and the authority of God himself. Certain songs or hymns are particularly helpful in disposing us to be open to this anointing from on high. (...)
— Fr. Cantalamessa’s “Come, Creator Spirit”, p. 162 - 169

All artists are prophets. The ones who create under the anointing of the Holy Spirit are able to move, heal, and restore lives, communities, and societies. There is a difference between admiring a work of art, even in the beautiful classical form, which was created by an artist who was, as St. Paul describes, still in the flesh, carnal and not redeemed, and admiring a work of art created by an artist who is becoming spiritual and mature in Christ. The anointing which is growing within the spiritual artist will permeate not only the psychological and carnal sphere, but will cross into the core of a human being, resurrecting the dead, leaving the effect of experiencing God or of having a religious, spiritual experience. 

Contemporary praise and worship aims at creating an atmosphere where the anointing of the Holy Spirit will be welcomed, cherished, allowed to influence, and to bring transformative power. It releases its impact to those who are open to it. There is more to creating this atmosphere than following the standard prescription of fast praise, slow worship, silent adoration, and final receptiveness to the new creative word spoken to all in a prophetic utterance. (More about this point will come in later posts.)

And here is the last bit about the anointing the pertains to the clergy, and how ecumenism becomes a natural fruit of operating under the leadership and anointing of the Holy Spirit:

On every side we see signs of how vitally necessary it is, especially for the leaders of the Church, to live and work under this spiritual anointing in its twofold aspect of gentleness and strength. It would be a mistake for ordained ministers to count only on the sacramental anointing, received once only when they were ordained and not to be repeated, and which enables them to be appointed to lead, preach, and to teach. Ordination provides, so to say, the authorization to do certain things, but not necessarily the authority to do them. It assures the apostolic success. (...)

This bishop goes on to describe the effect that this anointing had on his diocese. Where before he had not known what to do for priests struggling with the problem of alcoholism other than to suggest to them that they go to a clinic for treatment, he now invited them into his home and prayed with them, and number were completely healed by the power of prayer. Where before at clergy meetings they had spoken of everything but evangelization and the real spiritual mission of the Church, they now all agreed that what the diocese most needed was renewal in the Holy Spirit. Ecumenism, which had been a kind of abstract doctrinal problem, became a living reality, and the various Christian churches in the area were drawn together in a new relationship and by new contacts.
— Fr. Cantalamessa’s “Come, Creator Spirit”, p. 162 - 169

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5 years, 11 months.

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5 years, 11 months.

I wanted to post this on Dec. 30th, right before Onething 2015 morning session with Audrey Assad, Matt Maher and Francis Chan but I did not finish the second to last paragraph. So here it goes, one of the stories where I can humbly acknowledge that I have not screwed up very badly in assertively prevailing in praying for what has followed as one of the most beautiful reconciliation and worship moments I have witnessed. It is very personal and I don't usually post such intimate reflections but sometimes I have to suck it up and just share things that are allowed to be shared.

In 2009, while on staff at the International House of Prayer in Kansas City, during prayer, I received a desire which could be best articulated as a desire to see a united Body of Christ praising God together in the U.S., including Catholics. I have seen it done before in many nations were I lived. Growing up as a young adult in Poland, we Catholics would organize and invite Protestants, non-denom, and Pentecostals to join for the March for Jesus, joint street evangelization, conferences or prayer initiatives. Living in Russia, we saw hundreds and thousands of people from different Christian backgrounds coming to seek God's face, praise Him together and enter into deeper understanding of our callings and visions. And it wasn't a surprise for me to participate in similar gatherings even while living in the Middle East. Surprisingly, I have not been able to see many of the same in the U.S., since we moved back here in 2003. 

So, at that moment in 2009, not knowing any Catholics in the U.S., I googled "Catholic worship leaders". It did not take me long to pick which one I sensed would fit the vision that was crystalizing in my heart: Matt Maher. At this point, I didn't know any Catholics personally, except a group of homeschoolers in an online forum, I never went to any Catholic services since moving to the U.S. from Qatar in 2003. I had no contact with any Catholic parish, organization or priest.  

We were planning to go to TheCall in Houston for a prayer rally around the newest abortion clinic that was about to be opened. I had a sense to search for "Catholic events" in Houston during that weekend. I found two: a John Michael Talbot concert and Matt Maher playing during the Mass in a small suburban parish. I told Keith we needed to go to both. 

After the concert I briefly talked to John Michael Talbot, telling him how we were copying his tape recordings for years during Communism and how popular his music was behind the Iron Curtain. He was the first Catholic in the U.S. I encountered personally. 

After the rally we went to the church and that was my first Mass in the U.S. After Mass, we wanted somehow to briefly talk to Matt and we did, in the parking lot after everyone had left. We told him we were 'from IHOP' and 'from the Call'. I told him that I believed "he is supposed to play with IHOP and TheCall" some time in the future. When I was saying this, my brain was telling me: "This is the stupidest introduction I could make. The guy will think we are the weirdosmatics who claim daily downloads from God and try to prophesy over everything that is alive in a five yard distance." But my gut was sensing the kairos moment that no mishaps of words could blow away. Matt was moved, we were moved, we prayed and asked God to take us from this point of history to the next and we asked for Him to arrange the time. Or something like that. This happened in January 2010, in a parking lot of the Our Lady of Rosary in the suburbs of Houston. (I am recalling this meeting to the best of my memory). That was 5 years and 11 months ago. 

If you are into anything even remotely touching ecumenical dialogue, you know that papers, declarations and formal documents do not move people into trusting each other, they just open up the horizons and give a general way of entering into conversation, providing understanding, language and theological as well as historical background to further explorations. But the heart of ecumenism is in relationships which start when we see a similar trait of Jesus in another person who wants to love us as He does and whom we decide to encounter, hoping to discover similarities leading us toward His presence. Mutual honor, respect and learning from each other proceeds any theological discussion. So we left it at that and communicated every now and then, seeing if God was moving us toward something more concrete. 

Matt visited IHOP soon after (with Leeland) and I made them good scrambled eggs at 7 am, because spiritual life totally depends on it. Soon after, Matt's manager sent us Matt's CD and another young girl's CD, saying she recommends her music, or something like that. I listened to the first two measures of the first song on that girl's CD and suddenly I had the feeling that "she will make it big" and "she will do that unity thing with Matt". I looked at the name on the cover. It was Audrey Assad. It happened that I met her soon after and clumsily asked to pray for her, which she agreed to. In that moment the Spirit's voice was gently descending and the Unspoken brilliance of His creative power rested peacefully in that place. A call to trust was born. It felt like swirls of colors breaking from the prism while echoing the sounds of heaven. Enough said. Disclaimer: I am not that prophetic but this was quite hard not to hear. At this point I know you might think that I am making this stuff up, but I don't care. Something intensified for a moment, and then, as it usually happens, died. The vision went dormant, the expectation of a relationship between the Evangelicals/Charismatics and Catholics sort of died and life went on.

I feel disunity in the Church strongly. It is almost a physical thing for me; it is violent and the wound I experience is very deep. There are seasons where the only decent expressions in prayer are growling lamentations and I feel the torment of the hordes of hell raising the voice of triumph over earthly divisions, the claims of a Church victorious sound pitiful, and the norm is an unawareness of the lack of credibility of witness through becoming One Voice. Notions of unity are dismissed as naivete, and no one grieves or cries over this wound. To make people agree to come together as one requires an enormous amount of spiritual grit, endurance, discernment, assertiveness, favor, spiritual warfare, time, conversations, relationship building, failures, being misunderstood, being considered imprudent and plain crazy; it demands travailing, endurance, frustration, and waiting for peace where there is only crucifixion. It takes you through feeling stupid among the wise ones and it makes you look inadequate and foolish among the knowledgeable ones. This deal of 'becoming one' demands being open to the kairos moments of encountering God and His people and prayer and changing everything when He asks. No formula can deliver what God makes out of our weak efforts and no perfect planning or marketing will ever achieve what His wisdom anoints in a moment and among people He chooses as His own. The price for restoring the Body to become one is death in totality but Jesus' sweating blood is worth it all. 

Today at 9am, I will sit on a burgundy chair among 20,000 people and experience Jesus being worshipped by one Body when Matt and Audrey will lead the Onething2015 conference in praise and worship. I don't feel any closure to this story, quite the opposite. Let's see what happens. 




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An Intercessors-Eye View of Onething 2015

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An Intercessors-Eye View of Onething 2015

Prayer is an amazing thing.

In order to truly enter into Christian prayer, we need to understand ourselves as the anawim, as God's wholly-dependent children, aware of our need even to the point of being overwhelmed with the helplessness of it all, and yet trusting in the immense love of our Heavenly Father, and waiting on His good will. To pray is to give our hearts and our lives to God's unfolding drama.

Oh, how we have prayed.

As coordinator of intercessors, I asked a small group of mostly local fellow intercessors to pray for MajorChange, and for the Onething conference in particular. Several more joined in from across the country as the time drew close, including a community of Sisters. Twenty-five people committed to pray in the 12 hours leading up to the Wednesday morning session that could only be described as a break-through in God's purposes for unity in His church. But it is no coincidence that since the conference I have heard several times "I have been praying for something like this for years," "This has been an ache in my heart for decades." Just today, a man told me he had put it on his prayer list three years ago that the Majors would be able to pull this event together and make it happen. From a general ache to a specific vision, this has not just been the answer to a few prayers. It has been God imparting a desire of His heart into our hearts, and enfolding us all in the drama He intends for His church in this time.

I am quite certain that the story is still unfolding, and the seeds that were planted during the last week in December 2015 in Kansas City will bear much fruit which still remain to be even imagined by us. The ache of prayer will continue; day-in, day-out faithfulness will be asked of all of us; many needs will arise to be met. God is not done. Isn't it exciting?

With all of our hearts, let us tell God "yes" in every way, that we can participate in HIs desire to save those lost in darkness by means of His church, united in purpose and love.

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